Aniston 'shocked' about Pitt and Jolie
(AP)
Updated: 2005-08-04 08:46

In her first interview since splitting with Brad Pitt, Jennifer Aniston said she was "shocked" by the breakup and was trying to "pick up the pieces in the midst of this media circus."

Jennifer Aniston said during an interview that she would love Brad Pitt for the rest of her life. [baidu]

Aniston broke down twice during the interview for the September issue of Vanity Fair, on newsstands Aug. 9. Mostly, though, the actress came across as resilient.

"Am I lonely? Yes. Am I upset? Yes. Am I confused? Yes. Do I have my days when I've thrown a little pity party for myself? Absolutely. But I'm also doing really well."

The 36-year-old actress says the media coverage and tabloid rumors have been hard to deal with — especially reports that she didn't want to start a family.

"A man divorcing would never be accused of choosing career over children," she says. "I've never in my life said I didn't want children. I did and I do and I will!"

Aniston filed for divorce in March, citing irreconcilable differences after four and a half years of marriage. The couple separated in January.

Aniston says she is aware of Pitt's attraction to Angelina Jolie, his "Mr. and Mrs. Smith" costar, but doesn't blame their split on her.

"It's just complicated," Aniston says. "There are all these levels of growth — and when you stop growing together, that's when the problems happen."

But when pictures showing Pitt and Jolie together with her 3-year-old son, Maddox, on a beach in Africa were published, the former "Friends' star says: "The world was shocked and I was shocked."

She was also hurt by a fashion spread in W magazine that showed Pitt and Jolie as a 1960s-style married couple.

Aniston says: "I just don't know what happened. I feel as if I'm trying to scrounge around and pick up the pieces in the midst of this media circus."

Otherwise refusing to talk badly of Pitt, the actress says she doesn't want to mimic the bitterness of her parents' divorce.

"I love Brad; I really love him. I will love him for the rest of my life," says Aniston. "I don't regret any of it, and I'm not going to beat myself up about it.”

Another false report, Aniston says, is her relationship with Vince Vaughn, her costar in the upcoming movie "The Break Up."

"I like a lot of people, but I'm not 'in like' with anybody."

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